Ain Cobain

Two in One??

2010-05-13T11:15:00.003+08:00

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU.

Im caught in two.
Trying to have double chips im having a double fits.
Shut up its the best way to get your cookie in bed.
Bummer, i still have a curfew that last me a year.

Im not good at words or face to face.
But i know im goog at making smiling.
Smile brings joy to your life.
As for now, trouble keep finding me, but still im SMILNG.
=D

18 birthday!

2010-04-11T07:39:00.003+08:00

And now Im LEGALLY 18 years old girl. =D
Not much i wanna say, but a big,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AIN KOBAIN !!
I LOVE MYSELF AND I'M GETTING MOTORBIKE LICENSE !!
Oh, i can even help my friend to buy some ciggies. Haha !!
And im not afraid to show them my IC !!
OMG this is so fucking fun !! And gettting to watch M18 movies !!
Yeah !! I feel so GOOD !!
:D

18 and LIFE I GOT IT !!
18 and LIFE YOU KNOW !!

Please god...

2010-03-24T00:18:00.003+08:00

*I WISH I'M A RICH KID, BUT NOT SPOILED.*

Went for the first trail at Fitness First.
It was awesome damn awesome!!
The have steaming room and a sauna room plus!
Its a HIGH-END gym you can get!
The toilet was so expensive and beautiful! Damn!
But, i only there for 5days free trail.
After that, good bye. UNLESS! IM A MEMBER!
Fuck, only i could get $193 just for the joining fee, admin fee plus the month fee.
Then after that every month i just have to pay $88 !!

GOD! I NEED A JOB I NEED MONEY!!
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!!
ARGH!!

Sandra Bullock

2010-03-21T01:43:00.003+08:00

Sandra Bullock.

Love her and love to watch her acting.
So beautiful yet so soft and funny.
Wish i was like her.
Too bad im not White or with Natural Coloured hair.
Damn!

But still, im Ain with respect or without.
I dont care cause I AM WHO I AM.
Truth: I only respect to those who i love or like.
Im not arrogant just that i forgive(sarcastically) and never forget.
That is who i am.

What a shape

2010-03-19T10:55:00.004+08:00

Look what i've found in my dusty email!!

Me and my friends!!
And look how happy and crazy we were when we're young!!
Plus look at them and me when we are still IN SHAPE!!

Look how skinny i was??!!
Fuck what did i do to became this fat??!!
JUST LOOK AT ME!! DAMN!

Milky guy

2010-03-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

Andrew Shim

Love his sideburn, love those lips.
I should admit, i prefer those trad skins rather than sharp skin.
They are more good looking and better clothing.
Can say, their dressing abit like Mods.
But who care, my guy is a Trad Skin.
Love him.

Louie, Louie.

Ain Bean Kobain

2010-03-13T02:04:00.003+08:00

Irritated i get when my mum's POSB cant get the money out.
Fish! Whats wrong?
But in the end, got the money and got POPEYE!
Hungry thought, but im full while eating.
Trying to control my eating and food.
Support me while im trying to get my shape back.
Thanks.

What i do is what i earn for.
Trying hard is the best for everything.
Too much thinking crush my head in the sink.
Toodles is what im going to say next.
Amigos!

New day !!

2010-03-12T01:22:00.003+08:00

Start up with a brand new day.
I have just finished my first year and then one year left.
Fuhhh~
Its irritating cause i used to care so much about the project.
But now, i have just pass it up!
Oh i just took my exams so,
Its time to shape up my body and get a life and a temp job.
Yeah!

So my time table for getting my shape back is,
Morning, jog at the reservoir and before going to sleep,
Exercise abit more or jog on the spot.
But if im working, sleep early morning go jogging is im in the afternoon shift.
If in the morning, at night i go jogging around the neighbourhood then sleep.
So yeah, mark my words im going to be slim like last time!!

So now, take a look at me now.
Then slowly look at me after. =D

WTF!

2010-03-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

Neck pain and cant look down yet.
Dammit!

Its been a long long time ive went to gig.
Rectly i just went to a gig! AND theres alot of new bitches and dickes out there.
Not that im saying im a old timer but come one.
This is a gig not a dressup doll partay man!
I think they need some one to knock their head out hard.
Pity? YES VERY PITY!
Aiyeeerrrhh...

Kurt cobain birthday

2010-02-20T03:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 43rd BIRTHDAY KURT!!
Only i wish you were still alive now.
I hope you know who i am.
I love you.
Your my idol and my all time favourite artist.
You inspired me until now and forever.

If only i could turn back time.

Murder/suicide, its a pain thing.
Drugs and food are exactly the same addition.
No food, no water no energy to live a day.
No sleep that can take you away.

Straight Up

2010-02-16T01:17:00.002+08:00

Too much of works to do till i have no time for update.
Sorry aye.

Well, lets talk about my past few weeks/days.
I hate school cause i always hated school. -,-
Monday is my due date, have to submit my project.
I dont know its going to work or not, but just pray to God.
Hopefully i will pass my project. *Amin*
So yep havent finish assemble and some parts are been cut.
Just left the handles, the top, the base and drilling holes for assemble.
Yep, theres a lot of things havent been done. Hopefully before Monday its going to finish.
=D

Anyway, all i can say its been very very very long time i havent step in orchard.
Hah, and im missing Syilah already....
Oh i need to go shopping.. But then, have to wait until i got a JOB.
Hah! Anyway, i just realize Paula Abdul songs quite good.
Well, ENJOY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5A3yF0bjLo

Ibu's day

2010-02-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

Love my mother.
Her Birthday.
46 years old woman that always been strong.
A finest woman that i respected.
I love my Ibu so much!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY & HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!

I die alone

2010-02-07T15:13:00.001+08:00

I dont need friends or lover to live my life.
Cause i know i will die alone.
And no one will say anything.

What am i?? A robot??

2010-02-03T01:00:00.002+08:00

I did nothing wrong, but people keep stepping my head.
Is this what i get for being to friendly??
Too helpful??
What the fuck man!
Why must they make me suffer till i finish school till 7.45pm??
Wheres your promises you made??
Until now, i dont know i should trust anyone anymore.
They keep playing with me until i gave up.
SERIOUSLY I GIVE UP!!
FUCK THIS SHIT!

STRESS

2010-01-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

"Its better to work alone rather working with people"

Grunge,

2010-01-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

Brought a book from HMV.
And the book tittle is GRUNGE.
That was the first thing i look and and i bought it quickly.
Eventhough i have to save my money but end up buying things which im freak at.
Most of my friends and family knows that KurtCobain is my favorite idol.
Even my Mum thinks im crazy.
But, what the hell, i love him and forever will loved.
And thats how i get the name Ain Cobain from.
But now, i just realize many Kurt's fans name last name is Cobain.
But mine, a different way but same pronunciation its,
AIN BEAN KOBAIN. Plus add Francis middle name.
Oh i get that from Kurts diary thats where he wrote KURT KOBAIN.
Funny, yet i love it.

MF

2010-01-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

The truth is, im a FUCKING RACIST!
Fuck you..
I dont need PRETENDERS just to pretend that they are my friends.
And for your information, i DONT NEED a friend with TWO FACES.

DIRTY LIL' ASSHOLE!
Suck your Dads Dick till it DRY!!
MF!

What should i get?

2010-01-05T17:59:00.002+08:00

School was okay.
But prefer said, i hate school.
Everyone does even the nerdy type too.
Partly because of the students there.
Tsk.

Anyway, i need a job, i need money!
I have plenty thing to buy and save!
Firstly, i wanna get a bike license,
Secondly, get a bike that suits me and,
Lastly, get everything i want for myself.
(Want to get pampered!!)

Thats my target for this year.
And im going to be 18 in couple of months away.
So i wouldnt be so worried for crying out!
Oh even i cant watch M18 so that Jai wont say he's dating with a little girl.
Damn you !!
Well thats it. My wishes that im aiming for...

2010

2010-01-03T02:31:00.001+08:00

Happy Fucking New Year, MotherFuckers!!

2010, for me to grow stronger then ever!!
Hail the 666 of my age!!
HUAH!!

Hate my stomach

2009-12-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

I feel so lazyy..
I feel so fatt..
I feel so sleepyy..
I feel so heavyy..

Arghh!! When is my menses going to come???

Dermot Mulroney

2009-12-26T14:17:00.009+08:00

Dermot Mulroney

I dreamt of him like an three hours ago.
God! Is the best dream ever!!
I dreamt that i was in this school of acting and that school was located at some where in United State.
And the school was so big i couldn't imagine it. But still, i dreamt about it.

So the story goes like this,
I was in a class full of student with some blond hair, red hair, brown hair.
But only me with a black hair.
Suddenly theres a group of actors came in my class.
And i was shock to see there Johnny Depp, Drew Fuller and alot more and not forgetting Dermot Mulroney.
So i came up to them and try to talk to them but then, they were in a argument.
So this guy, i dont know who ask me to gave Dermot a piece of letter.
So i gave him and he took it. But when he took it.
I say, "Erm, hey, can i kiss your hand?"
Then i just kiss his hand and i ask,
"How is your wife doing??"

Then all of a sudden he look at him and stare i was so scared and then this one old man came up to me and say,
"Do not ask him about his wife, they have already been divorce."
I was shock, so all i could do was take a deep breath and came up to him and say.
"Im really sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you or your feelings, SORRY!!"
Yep i said that to him. But he just look at me and smile in a sacartic way.
From there i know he hated me. So i just keep quite and went to the toilet.
So after i went to the toilet i was walking down the hallway and i saw Dermot standing infront of my classroom leaning backwards to the wall and he was talking to some one on his cell phone.
So i tried to avoid him in many ways but he saw me and i didnt know what else to do so i walk pass him and i look at him and i just did a Sorry hand thinggy on my head.
And went in. So after my class finished i just realize that my diamond ring is missing.
I bend down and crawl just to search for it.
I search and search i found this beautiful ring and i wear it, but i didnt want it i put it back where i found it and search for my ring.
And there! I saw it i quickly take it and wear it.
And i just realize that someone is watching over me. It was Dermot.
He smiled at me widely and he grab a brown paper and wrote something on it.
So the next thing i knew i was running and he too ran.
So i just keep running and running until i realize that he running toward a girl.
So in my dream was abit of lameness.
And then he just realize that girl was the one he wanted to give the paper at.
But actually it was me la.
So i came up to him and say,
"Let me help you to search this girl."
But he didnt say a word and just smile.
So we walk in the school to find that girl hes looking for but didnt find her nowhere.
And suddenly he look at me and came closer to me and kiss me lip to lip.
Gosh! i can feel the romanticness of his soft lips and his touch.
We were kissing quite long. Then there this guy an old guy saw us and he scolded us.
But we ran away from him untill we reach at the main hall.
And there was this brown hair girl.
He talk to her and while i tried to talk to her, she shooed me away.
So i went to the stairs and sit while Dermot and the girl talk.
While i was sitting infront of me was Drew Fuller!
He said to me, "I dont want a girl that is rude. I want the type of girl that is you."
My heart was beating fast and i cant breathe much.
Then Dermot came up to me and say.
"I hate that girl! Gosh!"
Then he turn back did something which i cant see, then after that he turn and look me in the eye.
He say, "She's my ex. But i just realize the girl ive been wanting is right here infront of my eye."
And he wisper in my left ear say, "I love you, love."
And the wrost part is!
I was awaken by a sound from my brothers lappy!
God and i cant fall asleep back!
Sheeeessssss!!

So anyway, this is how my dream love story with Dermot goes.
But abit of complicated dream.
Still, i like the dream VERY MUCH!! *melts*

As we stand,

2009-12-25T01:55:00.002+08:00

Its like the Charmed girls.
Heh.
I miss those times, i miss those smiles and i miss both of you.
At last we had our laughs.
Never again will be forgotten.

The long lost siblings..

Out of,

2009-12-17T02:47:00.002+08:00

Whatever it is, we still rock and stick together.
Just like a Handphone and a Wallet never let them separated.
Lollies till end..

Ain Cobain quotes :
"Best eh jadi kita!" - In malay
"Great to be us!" - In english

Hate me if you can

2009-12-11T11:06:00.002+08:00

Dont look down on me,
Cause one day, i'll make sure people look down on you.
Please dont get me started.
Im not what you think i am.
Its not the arrogant that matters,
But the thinking and the attitude that counts.
I tried many ways to talk and sort things with you.
But i guess im not part of it anymore.
Im no longer the youngest and craziest sister.
Its okay i still have my own sister that still appreciate me.
I L O V E Y O U , S I S T E R.

Please stay.

2009-12-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

Everything i wanted for and i have always loved.

I cant hide

2009-11-30T16:38:00.002+08:00

Worried.
Im so confuse and i dont know what should i do.
It says no, but somehow i feel that its a yes.
But then again, he says no. What should i do?
Maybe, i should trust him.
Then, why am i so worried sick about it?
If its a yes, where should i go??
When will i go?? Or how should i give it?
In a name of God, hopefully its not.
Amin.

Blood to blood

2009-11-23T19:52:00.002+08:00

" I am what i am, I do what i want."

A moment of life is a moment of hell.
People say, people goes.
Never had things to worry, only worries come with a thing.
Stressing cause of pain.
Blood didnt came out.
Funny, i thought im going to die.
But i wont go, i wont sleep untill it came.

New life

2009-11-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

First i thought i was having a great fun, but ended i blew everything up.
Everything i did, i done its all a waste.
Frankly, I'm not the type of prefect girl that everybody wants.
I'm a normal and randomly out of focus girl.
Even, bad in me starting to be good.
The past I've done, i regret.
And I'm hoping that God gave me a second chance to lead my life in a good and respected way.
Ive done shame to myself and i done many shame to my pride.
I'm not going to do it again, cause even Bad person has their Good side in their lives.
And I'm living my Good and for Good side of mine.
May God bless me. Amin

Daddy

2009-11-08T03:43:00.003+08:00

I miss this 'Dad' of mine.
He may not be my real Dad but he is a great father a child could have.
How i miss those times that our small 'family' be so happy and crazy.
But now, every things didn't seem a family to me.
Only me and my sister kept it alive even we hardly see each other.
And i swear that I'm going to get my small happy and crazy family back.
I promise to myself i will even it takes me years, i will bring it back.

"When times starts to tumble and fall, the earth starts to move apart."

Syilah

2009-11-07T03:30:00.004+08:00

I just don't know why i love mixing with old people.
And seriously, i have no idea why I'm so close and closer than you think with her.
Not as in a lesbian shes more than a best friend to me.
A GREAT SISTER.

Ive look around and see that i am so lazy to go to school.
Maybe the environment there doesn't suits me well enough.
Then again, i regret going ITE.
Some may say that Ite life are the best. But to me i prefer Secondary life.
But fuck me for not having enough money for Shatec.
Asshole life.

Sharizal's Girl.

2009-11-05T01:29:00.002+08:00

He who send me this through Facebook email.
And obviously he piss me off every single day of my life.
Yet, I'm madly in love with him until today and the next day and the rest of my life.

Grumpy me makes fool of me and be ashamed to be me.
I get nothing when im madly mad.
I get nothing when i win or lose.
All i get in myself with a red face.
Now i hate myself when im became monster.
Still, this is who i am.

Seriously, Fucked.

2009-11-03T20:54:00.004+08:00

Fuck you for lying to me.
Fuck you for knowing nothing about me.
Fuck you for being too kind.

Fuck me for being fucking friendly
And fuck me for killing my shit up again.

Sometimes i wish that walls can speak back to me.
I feel that talking to humans are wasting my time, some humans.
I wish Tommy is with me right now and if he's still alive, i bet my life will be cats and mice's again.
I miss him. And i feel damn regret for not taking him with me.
Blame it on my Grandfather. He probably hates animals i guess?
But seriously, if my family didn't moved here.
I think Tommy would love it and so do i.
Well, blame my dad and blame my Step fucking Mother.
Don't ask, its a never ending story. Sheesh.
And now,
I don't know why i feel so emotional nowadays.
Maybe i never let or tell anyone what i kept inside me and who i really am.
I guess im a loner or a egoist who will never change the attitude that been pissing everyone around.
Maybe what he said to me is true.
I never listen to my heart all i do is getting mad and let everything out on him.
And one damn hot tempered bitch.
But seriously, when comes to relationship, i suck.
But when comes to friendship, i rock.
Maybe i have the power of two personalities?
Hmm. But all i know that im good at acting.
In real life not on television.
But only one thing i know myself is that,
If you try to piss me off or better, find fault with me or my love ones..
Im so going to make you pee in your pants or skirts if you're a girl.
Even i can make your life fucking miserable and please, dont think that i am a girl that you think you can pushed me around.
But for your information girl like me never stand a chance.
So mark my words.

Hopeless words.

2009-11-02T18:25:00.002+08:00

"I got it all at the back of my Head."
-The Spinto Band

And now, everything seems to be ending. Not sure why.
Maybe the world is old.
Raining now days and thunder are getting louder every time.
I'm scared, maybe i feel that my time is going to end soon.
But who am i to know when I'm going to die.
But all i know every living things have to die.
And still, I'm scared. Many things are in my mind now.
And only one that i haven't know the answer yet.
'What do i get when everything starts to fall?'
This line and this sentences been playing through my mind every now and then.
Well, its my job to find out the answer that i've been waiting for a long time.
Still, what do i got lose?

Caught up.

2009-11-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

"I'm not done but you asked me to go, even it hurts me so."

A sudden of line ran across my mind while lying on my bed.
And straight i wrote it down cause just in case that i would want to use that line for some things.
Now, i feel so frustrated and i feel that no one is listening to me.
What did i done wrong? Why must i feel this way?
Is this my karma? Maybe its just a Sunday that i wouldn't want it to be.
Well, fuck i hate today and tomorrow.

The FAT STONE

2009-10-31T17:57:00.003+08:00

I never thought my life will be so stone.
But in fact it is. I felt that whatever im doing it will be so slow.
Well, maybe i am slow at some things but come to defeat, im not.
Not just drugs makes us feel relax. Listening to soft and instrumentals songs make you chill.
Im here to let out what is keeping my mind from blocking.
Maybe its the fats that im having? Or just stress cause im stuck.
I guess its the fats that im facing now. I dont know why its so hard to move my fats away.
I tried dieting and yeah i dont eat much food nowdays.
But i just realize that i am fat and always have been fat.
Maybe its just my baby fats that havent been moved ages ago.
Dang it!

Pain and brain

2009-10-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

Longer i live the longer sins come and never go.
Its always been me. Too many hatred lives within me.
I scream thousand of name but none sounded.
I've gone hundreds times but only a reason why i stayed.
Not too much of fame but fame is not what i needed.
Lips kept on moving but in the end it need a charge.
Those smells i've been smelling it still kept continue playing in my mind.
But only two im asking.
Meditate my pain & Heal my brain.