Hate my stomach

I feel so lazyy..
I feel so fatt..
I feel so sleepyy..
I feel so heavyy..

Arghh!! When is my menses going to come???

Dermot Mulroney

Dermot Mulroney

I dreamt of him like an three hours ago.
God! Is the best dream ever!!
I dreamt that i was in this school of acting and that school was located at some where in United State.
And the school was so big i couldn't imagine it. But still, i dreamt about it.

So the story goes like this,
I was in a class full of student with some blond hair, red hair, brown hair.
But only me with a black hair.
Suddenly theres a group of actors came in my class.
And i was shock to see there Johnny Depp, Drew Fuller and alot more and not forgetting Dermot Mulroney.
So i came up to them and try to talk to them but then, they were in a argument.
So this guy, i dont know who ask me to gave Dermot a piece of letter.
So i gave him and he took it. But when he took it.
I say, "Erm, hey, can i kiss your hand?"
Then i just kiss his hand and i ask,
"How is your wife doing??"

Then all of a sudden he look at him and stare i was so scared and then this one old man came up to me and say,
"Do not ask him about his wife, they have already been divorce."
I was shock, so all i could do was take a deep breath and came up to him and say.
"Im really sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you or your feelings, SORRY!!"
Yep i said that to him. But he just look at me and smile in a sacartic way.
From there i know he hated me. So i just keep quite and went to the toilet.
So after i went to the toilet i was walking down the hallway and i saw Dermot standing infront of my classroom leaning backwards to the wall and he was talking to some one on his cell phone.
So i tried to avoid him in many ways but he saw me and i didnt know what else to do so i walk pass him and i look at him and i just did a Sorry hand thinggy on my head.
And went in. So after my class finished i just realize that my diamond ring is missing.
I bend down and crawl just to search for it.
I search and search i found this beautiful ring and i wear it, but i didnt want it i put it back where i found it and search for my ring.
And there! I saw it i quickly take it and wear it.
And i just realize that someone is watching over me. It was Dermot.
He smiled at me widely and he grab a brown paper and wrote something on it.
So the next thing i knew i was running and he too ran.
So i just keep running and running until i realize that he running toward a girl.
So in my dream was abit of lameness.
And then he just realize that girl was the one he wanted to give the paper at.
But actually it was me la.
So i came up to him and say,
"Let me help you to search this girl."
But he didnt say a word and just smile.
So we walk in the school to find that girl hes looking for but didnt find her nowhere.
And suddenly he look at me and came closer to me and kiss me lip to lip.
Gosh! i can feel the romanticness of his soft lips and his touch.
We were kissing quite long. Then there this guy an old guy saw us and he scolded us.
But we ran away from him untill we reach at the main hall.
And there was this brown hair girl.
He talk to her and while i tried to talk to her, she shooed me away.
So i went to the stairs and sit while Dermot and the girl talk.
While i was sitting infront of me was Drew Fuller!
He said to me, "I dont want a girl that is rude. I want the type of girl that is you."
My heart was beating fast and i cant breathe much.
Then Dermot came up to me and say.
"I hate that girl! Gosh!"
Then he turn back did something which i cant see, then after that he turn and look me in the eye.
He say, "She's my ex. But i just realize the girl ive been wanting is right here infront of my eye."
And he wisper in my left ear say, "I love you, love."
And the wrost part is!
I was awaken by a sound from my brothers lappy!
God and i cant fall asleep back!
Sheeeessssss!!

So anyway, this is how my dream love story with Dermot goes.
But abit of complicated dream.
Still, i like the dream VERY MUCH!! *melts*

As we stand,

Its like the Charmed girls.
Heh.
I miss those times, i miss those smiles and i miss both of you.
At last we had our laughs.
Never again will be forgotten.

The long lost siblings..

Out of,

Whatever it is, we still rock and stick together.
Just like a Handphone and a Wallet never let them separated.
Lollies till end..

Ain Cobain quotes :
"Best eh jadi kita!" - In malay
"Great to be us!" - In english

Hate me if you can

Dont look down on me,
Cause one day, i'll make sure people look down on you.
Please dont get me started.
Im not what you think i am.
Its not the arrogant that matters,
But the thinking and the attitude that counts.
I tried many ways to talk and sort things with you.
But i guess im not part of it anymore.
Im no longer the youngest and craziest sister.
Its okay i still have my own sister that still appreciate me.
I L O V E Y O U , S I S T E R.

Please stay.

Everything i wanted for and i have always loved.